Dark Blue

Recently I've found myself in freaking obsession (against my will, of course) to the song Dark Blue. Why? Well what caught my attention was the line 'have you ever felt alone in a crowded room?'. That right there, explains it all.

Now, how could a person feel alone in a crowded room? Perhaps they're sad. Perhaps they have something "On their minds". Perhaps someONE?

You guys are probably wondering why I've been MIA for so long, huh? Lots to do, and well honestly, I've lost inspiration. Maybe it comes and goes occasionally but whenever I sit down to type something I always wind up just staring at the screen, blankly.

like right now.

i have to go now

until another time

for now, tell me what it's like to be alone in a crowded room. and why.

-karmapolice

EPICAC

I just read today the saddest, sweetest I can think of at the moment. Perhaps the saddest, sweetest thing I’ve ever known, or maybe that I can think of at the moment. It is the short story “EPICAC”, by Kurt Vonnegut. Here’s the full story, or for those who don’t care for something that’s that long (it’s not long at all…), here’s the Wikipedia summary of it.

For those of you who don’t care for either of those, I’ll give a really short and lazy version of it. There’s this dude who is in love with this girl who never says yes to his constant proposals. So, he goes to this supercomputer thingermabobber where they work. He asks it to write love poems for him, and soon enough, the girl is wooed. However, when he asks the computer for the perfect proposal, the computer tells him that it’s in love with that girl too. After reasoning to it that it is a machine and blahblahblah, he goes on to propose to that girl and she says yes as long as he writes her a poem every anniversary. The next day, it happens that the supercomputer thing blew it self up, but before that, it made enough love poems for the dude to keep his end of the bargain for 500 years.

It’s so sad how this “machine” (the narrator says that it was less of a machine than other people he knew…, it was also his best friend) finally gets a problem it can’t solve, and that it never will solve. Although, instead of being a huge jackass about it, like it could have been, it does a really sincere gesture for his friend.

The end

I don’t what the point of this was

I wonder if EPICAC stands for anything specific…

Lalalalalalalalala

the end

sorry...

-digitaldelay

Absorbed in Your Thoughts?

Hmm, I wonder.

Psychology.
What makes the human mind like it is?
What makes someone think and tick?
That's a good thinking question, isn't it?
It is quite a mystery how the brain works and how we knew to use it from the start. It just sort of happens.

Psychiatry.
Does talking about your feelings really help?
Opening up your mind, while you're lost in them?
Being lost in your thoughts could be bad...Stress can build up and you may just explode one day.

Can people really change fate, since the start from birth?
Was Hitler born for greatness, but then led away from goodness?
In other words, do you control your mind, or does your mind control you?
All your memories are kept there. All that you learn. All that you know.
It is like one big locked up vault, where no one will be able to tell what is in it but the person who it belongs to. The vault may be small, or it may be an entire library of seemingly endless knowledge, one in which you may easily be lost in.


Stupidity is a disease. But isn't intelligence contagious, also?
-my.great.ESCAPE.

A Moment Changed

(thanks to miautoloco.com for the image)

It’s bizarre how quickly something can spread.

Is it the outlandish new gossip? A virus certainly isn’t much slower. No, definitely not the fleeting emotions that course through you.

Like a drop of food coloring, it doesn’t take much to accomplish much. Before you know it, you’ll be holding a cup full of bursting, color-tainted water. I can only wish the same could be said for a lot of other things we face in our lives. Rather, everything we encounter takes such a great deal of our energy and strength to achieve. We can’t ask for more...yet we can’t ask for less, either.

As humans, our minds are so very vulnerable. The thoughts and opinions of people around us affect what we believe, and in turn, what we do. Then, in a momentary amount of time, we start to make decisions in an entirely new state of mind. *insert British accent* Observe:

Person 1: Hey, let’s go see ‘Dawn of Reason’!
Person 2: Hm, but I’ve heard ‘Realm of Reality’ was super good...well, according to the critics.
Person 1: Really? Then...maybe we should go see that!

If you’ve never realized how influential other people are to you—including how influential you are to others—then you haven’t discovered your surroundings quite yet. Yes, you might be the nicest, friendliest person in school...but if someone, out of frivolous reasons, decides to start a rumor about how unfriendly you are, everyone will start to believe it’s true. Is it truly true? Maybe (or definitely) not, but you don’t have sudden proof to show that. Only as time goes by, people will start to recognize who you really are.

A lot of people in this world are subconsciously affecting the people around them, unknowingly. Is it a positive change? Or a change for the worse? If you stop and take a grasp of your life, you’ll comprehend it soon enough. And yes, people do make mistakes. People do do things they didn’t intend to do. It just happens. It may be disappointing...regrettable...and undesirable.

But if you were able to change it in the first place, you can change it back.

A little goes a long way.
(and I've never found a better time to say that)

-the clam.

Will You

Is bottled water better than tap water? It’s not like tap water is particular dirty; it does have to go through a filtering process. Plenty of bottled water is perhaps filtered just as much, or maybe less. Plus, bottled water uses plastic, and it sure does cost a lot to ship it, bottle it, and make the plastic. Tap water also has fluoride in it……………

Can things really become worse, purely because of the perceptions it has taken? If people think Yao Ming is really overrated, is he? Can what those outside of this thing’s direct contact really affect the actual, absolute quality of whatever is being judged? Can a musician(s) become terrible, overrated, and despised to someone just because of the way others think about it? Are we so gullible? Are we so needy that outside perceptions will affect what we think of something? Of course it will happen, but can it happen in a drastic manner? If someone says Alex Rodriguez sucks at the clutch, and always has, does that mean him hitting in a few game winning RBIs or HRs in the playoffs mean he got lucky for a game? Can that restaurant suddenly have bad food once you start to despise their waiters? Can a band start to become watered down once others have caught on?

Does anybody else reading this ever get annoyed at people who are overtly trying to, or are trying to seem to be, green? Actually, screw that, this can be anything really, not just being green, any other little niche too. Maybe they just try to shove it on you too much, but really, whoever said they were (insert here?) in the first place. Maybe you just played a benefit concert for that old dude who lost the election way back when, you probably got there in gas-guzzling private airplane, not to mention the stretched hummer you used to get to and from the airport.

I think its nice to know that something’s a bit funny with little kids running around at night (Halloween specifically) asking for money? Aren’t cute little kids with money in a box also completely defenseless little kids with lots of money that are just waiting to be tripped. Plus, their candy is probably going to get taken, or at least crushed on the floor. You’d UNICEF could think of better ways to advertise and get donations, rather than well, getting little kids beat up, because well, that’s kind of the opposite of what their supposed to do...

I honestly wondered what would happen if people just sat down, and wrote one big long paragraph on why, specifically why, they loved such a poet, musician, band, author, painter, filmmaker, etc. etc. etc. etc. etc. Would you kind of gain an insight into them selves?...maybe see why they appreciate that particular thing so much? Who knows I guess…

Dead weight

-dgitaldelay